courage, strength, hope, …it’s all there. and you can see it playing in your head.

and it all still feels — i still feel — the same.

they never do. i need to find someone who i don’t have to lie to, or about, to keep everyone happy.

i guess i had my hopes up too high. note to self: keep your hopes down low. my dad always said that there was no reason to be unhappy if you were doing the right thing.