26.april.2009
11:52pm

something is happening to me. this just keeps hitting me every other day or so. it’s not something i can really handle on my own. so, thank you for being there for me.

part of me knows this is all my fault. for trying to find answers to questions that didn’t need to be answered in the first place, just assumed. that would’ve been plenty, but i just couldn’t leave well-enough alone. not this time, not most times either. and it hurts deep. things like this should have a time limit for the hurt. then, when it has expired, it should just be forgotten or erased. at least dimmed and hidden.

it’s not like i meant for any of this to happen. it’s not like i wanted you to be with her. i wanted everything for you, for us. but it just couldn’t be, not with the part of your body you were thinking with.

this is over now. everything has been said and done. i just need to let go for good.