24.may.2009
8:06pm

i just don’t understand why you have to hide things from me. i just don’t understand what part of the things i say that you don’t understand. don’t you realize that you’re going to get caught in your lies? how much more of this should i put up with. i’m just about done. i’m just about sick of this. but i’m not sure if it’s enough to make me sick of you.

i really don’t mean to be controlling, but if you’d just show me that i can trust you again this would all go away. i know your family hates me because they think i’m controlling, but they’re not the ones who got hurt from everything you did. if they got hurt like i did they’d be controlling too. tell them to stay out of my life. i’ll be respectful in person, but if they butt in again all hell will break loose. and this is my warning. so don’t be surprised if i hate them sometime soon.

right now i’m not sure if this is love or if this is lust. i just wish i could figure all this out. i wish i knew how things would end up depending on the path i choose. i wish i could just trust you again.