10.january.2010
6:53pm

If you think back, there are a lot of things that haven’t played out in anywhere close to an ideal way. I am in a slight haze. When did this start? Where did I go wrong? When can I start over?
It’s days and nights and hours like these when I wish the things I want wouldn’t hurt the ones I love. I don’t know if I can take this. I can’t keep living loosely in the lies I need to tell to keep people off my case. I can’t keep doing this for you. What are you doing for me? Have you ever done anything for me? …I’m sure you have. Only, I can’t think of anything.
Is there a way to tell you I’m finished without hurting you? Because that’s the last thing I want to do. I only want happiness. Can you give me that? Can you be everything, and show me with actions? I’m tired of empty words. I’m ready for a life of unbroken promises. I’m ready to wake up and know we’ll be alright.