16.february.2010
1:04pm
(with rantings held in from Valentine’s day – for lack of internet access and time to write)

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so i guess i feel like i’m being a mom to too many people lately. it’s making me really stressed. and even more so because i really am a mom and need to be a mom to my kids first and foremost. i don’t think i should have to babysit everyone and be the only responsible person all the time. i wish people would just step up and take care of the things they need to take care of without constant reminders and wake up calls for stupid things like doing homework and dishes. i mean, i don’t want to do homework or dishes either, but they’re things that have to be done. so just do it. don’t make me feel like the bad guy who has to take away your toys and shut off the tv so you’ll get off your lazy ass and do something productive.

i left you with ONE task. do the dishes. i come back 60 hours later (over two and a half days) and you’ve done about 10 dishes. yes, the living room is vacuumed, but everything that was on the floor is on the couch. sorry, the room isn’t clean. yes, the kitchen floor is clean and the oven door is wiped clean enough that i can see my reflection, but the burners on the stove are grossly greasy and black all over. thanks for spending hell knows how much time crushing soda cans. but nothing is done. you couldn’t even put the bath toys back in the bath tub. our bedroom has clothes all over the floor (that’s what a laundry hamper is for) oh, and you just bought a dryer that works. thanks for doing ONE load of your stupid daughter’s blankets that weren’t even dirty. seriously, you spent the last two and a half days buying a dryer, buying your stupid toy guns, crushing cans, playing with your stupid toy guns, and probably drinking. which i told you not to do unless i was there. thanks a lot. i was hoping the reason you told me to not come over until 4 was because you were cleaning the whole house or doing something special for me, guess not. but i shouldn’t really expect anything more. it’s not like you ever do anything. at least not within a week of when you say it’ll be done.

is it horrible of me to want to just take away the xbox, toy guns, internet, and everything else until everything’s clean? i am just so angry. i was there for 2 hours and did all the dishes, cooked dinner, and cleaned up the bathroom, the kids room (wow, i forgot to even mention how the kids room looked in the above paragraph), the living room, and the rest of the kitchen. it’s not that hard. you just can’t be goofing off with your stupid friends. grrrr omfg. i’m so tired of this. i’m tired. i’m stressed. i need a break and a clean house to come home to. yeah, that would be a nice start.

sheesh.